This is going to be the hardest post I have ever had to write... so far.... It has been over two months since I have gotten some news that has changed my life forever. I have hesitated to make this information public because I still have not been able to wrap my mind around it. It is something that is very personal to me and very emotional. I guess I have struggled because I do not even know how to say it... or what to say...
About two months ago my parents received a wonderful mission call to serve the Lord on a 18 month mission to Finland. A week after receiving the call, my mother was diagnosed with cancer. At first this did not scare me. People beat cancer all the time... right? Life was going to change, but we would work through it. I had the faith that the Lord was going to heal her. She wanted to serve him here on Earth as a missionary so why would he take her now?
Very quickly my mom started tests and within a few days they came back that she was already in stage 4 with melanoma cancer. The cancer was so aggressive that it was quickly overtaking her and she only had a few short months left. My mom, my best friend.... I was going to loose her. I am too young to loose my mom. I am a young mom myself and the thought of loosing her has been too hard to take. My mom has been a wonderful strength to me. She has always remained faithful and strong. Even now, as she faces leaving this earth to return home, her faith has never wavered. I am so
grateful for the Gospel and for the knowledge that families are forever. Without that knowledge I do not know if I could go through this trial. It as been just over two months since we
received the news and we do not have as much time left as I would like. I want to cherish every word she says and every moment we have. I am
grateful the Lord has given me and my family some time to say the goodbyes and ask all the the questions.
Despite this trial, I am
grateful for the growth I have experienced. My love and
appreciation for the Gospel has grown.
